Running Mind

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The bell rings 

The curtain closes 

The owl hoots 

The alarm chimes 

The time has come 

My day is done 

But there is no stop 

To a running mind 

Love always, Esha  <3

Waves of Life

Let the waves of life pass over

You will not be moved

Let the sun beat down

But it will not bring weariness to you

Though enemies will bring war against you

Your heart will know no fear

For the Lord is your strong tower

And laughter is your medicine of choice

You will dance in the spring time

Blooming like seeds planted in good soil


Love always, Esha 

Outside

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Outside

 don't want to be outside in the winter time 

The roof is solid 

The heated water is on 

The walls know many secrets 

But tell no tales 

The frost is ice cold

The chill is beautiful 

As it changes the warm air to fog 

Still I stoke the fire by throwing logs 

By Esha 

Right Season

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Peace, ease, laughter and hope 

The beautiful of the moment 

And the time to cope 

Surrounded and wrapped in dreams 

That knows no bounds 

Prayers sent to heaven 

From quivering lips, dripping in hope 

And answered with love 

For once to know my tears, struggles and triumph

Are well thought of 

I was fashioned and designed for a special reason 

While I thought Jesus didn't care about my pain... 

He was just waiting for me 

To enter the right season  

Love always, Esha 

Small Victories

 
Take the time to put the work in. People may not see it. Those who do may not respect it. But in the end your blood, sweat and tears will pay off. Because hard work is its own reward and the skills you cultivate from perfecting your craft will mean more than an easy road to success. The beautiful of life is in the journey. Enjoy the small victories. 

Love always, Esha 

Been Gone

Sorry I've been gone for awhile 

I've been working, praying, staying focused 

Driving quickly to the next place 

Getting over the traumas of yesterday 

While utilizing every second that leads to a new tomorrow 

Preparing for the unseen blessings 

And challenges that set my heart ablaze 

Building the bricks of contentment one row at a time 

While fighting for a day and a moment that is truly mine 



Love always, Esha  

Event: Holiday Gift & Art Fair

Do you need a holiday gift? Do you need to get out of the house for a moment and shop? Come on through. We gonna have a good time! I'll be at Gateway Technical College in Kenosha, WI on December 3rd selling merchandise such as books, mugs, hats, scarfs and more. 

Love always, Esha 

Help

Eyes closed 

Head bowed 

Hands clasped 

Knees touching the ground 

Prayers raised high 

That's why we are hopeful 

All the time

Because we know... 

Where are hope comes from 

Love always,  Esha <3

Failing Words

Our words fall short 

They collapse before I love you 

Breaking like a vase hitting the floor 

We wonder bout the meaning be hide it all.. 

How to find the closeness of connection? 

Without stuttering in the moment when we receive an urgent call 

Only to realize that at times we are a bit too harsh on ourselves

On cloudy days we all need a bit of help

Love always, Esha

How to Survive Sadness

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Time isn't afforded to us. It is a privilege to those willing to take it no matter the cost they pay. But I find my mind wandering and searching through vague thoughts that send radiating sadness down my spine. Looking at puddles of dirty water that still reflects me. Hardly a day goes by that I don't think about my former life. The good, bad and ugly memories spin and release film that sours my stomach yet brings joyful yet bitter tears to heavy lids. I will ring the bell of triumph and joy when freedom rings. These days I see much sun but the rays have failed to reach my heart. It beats for moments and times that are long gone. How do I fly above the circumstances that have grounded me? The peace that once comforted my soul has dwindled to a small glowing ember. I hold onto its warmth with both hands. My palms may burn but I grip it still. Praying the meager fire will grow and expand once again. In the depth of my despair, I pray that Jesus hears me. He is my comforter, protector and greatest friend. Time has never changed his love. His kind gestures remain the same. I will run towards the only salvation I know. This life is short but the struggle never gets old. Let my cries reach his open ears. Let my tears be wiped by his skilled hands. Let my hardened heart unfold and blossom like roses in the springtime. May each petal shine with the dew drops of sparkling hope renewed. 


Love always, Esha 

God is Shaping Me for Sunshine

Warning: These are my thoughts and feelings about my journey thus far.

As of late, I have endured one difficult situation after another. But one thought always creeps into my mind at moments like this... I remember that God will never give me more than I can bear and I know that He has made me to be a conqueror. So no matter what I face, I know that Jesus is mighty in battle therefore I already won.

For decades, I was under the belief that God forgot about me. That somehow the hard times were meant to return me into the dust from which I came. But it never occurred to me that the very things that I thought would kill me were only meant to smooth out my rough edges. There are areas in my soul that God wanted to take a sledgehammer to so that I could be used for His glory.

While I am in the middle of being formed into someone I couldn't become on my own I realize that... all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are called according to his purpose (Romans 8:28). Because I am stubborn but the changes that are happening in me are out of necessity. And I have to be okay with knowing that one day this will all make sense when I look over the totality of my life.

The hardest part about believing in God is trusting in Him completely. Yesterday, I felt like the world was out of whack. I looked in the mirror and questioned, how I could live a life that lacked stability? I wondered if I could survive without the presence of my wonderful Father and his witty yet crude remarks? Who am I without my Dad's 6 foot shadow towering over me and restricting my outlandish nature?

Relying on the unchanging hand God without the comfort of a patriarch to guide me is hard. Even though I see myself as an outspoken woman the truth is... I always had a strong male role model in my life. So I trusted in his judgement more than I should have at times. I ran to him for advice like a child running to an arcade game. Now I have no choice but to let go and let God.

My heavenly Father will have to replace the one I lost on earth. But life has taught me that there is no friend that can compare to Jesus. He died for me while I was in sin so I will live for Him. Despite the challenges, I encounter, my heart will endure as a result of my faith. In time, all the things that once made me cry will make me smile. And my crazy life story will become a testimony that encourages all those who wait for the break of a new dawn to rise in their bleak sky. Hopefully, I will lead people to remember that all children of God were made to shine. 

Love always, Esha <3

Short Thought: Nowhere Special

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What is love without kindness?

It's empty promises spread out over time

That lead to nowhere


Love always, Esha <3

A Battle for Peace

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Time to reflect is a wonderful phenomenon. There is no perfect person. No absolute moments of triumph. In battle, the conqueror defeats the conquered but no matter the gains of the victor both sides suffer the loss of causalities. But abundant happiness lives in the wilderness for the lovers of peace.

The terrain of barren land is the desolate stretch that blessed and bitter people walk alone. We live with the prospect of anticipation while dragging our tired soul through moments of shock and disbelief. But the heart is ever wandering when there is a vacancy of love and trust. How do you turn a corner when civil conversation ends? Will you show the same grace and mercy to an enemy that you give to a friend?

Let your pearly whites shine in the brilliance of day. You are the strong tides breaking over sharp rocks. Hope is a thing with feathers and it takes flight every time you give optimism a chance. Even if you believe that it may be returned. Because faith is the belief in the unseen. And when all is said and done it feels better to know that the unblemished Lamb slain for our sins is in charge of everything.

Love always, Esha

Podcast Segment & Poetry: Aren't Acquired Easily

Aren’t Acquired Easily

I waited for the break of aging time 

But wrinkles never formed on the hands 

And rust never touched the dial

Meanwhile, I moved eagerly to the sound of tic toc tic 

My arms stretched out like eagle wings ready to soar 

My feet stepped in sequence to the beat of unrealized dreams

Deadlines have evaded me 

Pit stops have kept me sidetracked too long  

I begged and pleaded for a moment 

That surpassed my meager understanding 

Patience is not on my side 

But I nurture it with hope birthed in the belly of the trenches 

Awaiting a season that beckons the seed 

That laid dormant in harsh winters 

And endured the bitter rain of a spring not quite broken 

That sat through the abundantly hot weather of summer 

Only to arrive at fall all over again 

Do not let the time of harvest past me 

Let my crops rise up strong from barren, decrepit soil 

The foundation is hard but my ground is solid 

The wind may blow but my bedrock will not giveaway 

The sound of steady brass ticking 

Fills my heart with anticipation 

Everyday is another chance to face my struggles and grow 

No amount of daylight savings can stop the progress I have made

I am claiming my tomorrow today

There is no biological clock bigger than my aspirations 

I will live with the sunshine on my face 

And the darkness on my back 

Standing in the truth that is awaiting those who smile in the midst of adversity 

Now and forever my heart will sing a new song 

I will sit near the edge of the dock awaiting the breath of daybreak 

Soon my seeds will blossom 

And I will dance upon the ease of their arrival 

Their leaves will open like unraveling scrolls of truth, 

Not yet realized 

But ready to exist in the cool breeze of Monday mornings 

Awaiting the warm feeling of resting dew drops 

Time has taught me patience 

Because the greatest things in this life 

Aren’t acquired easily

Love always, Esha

Check out my podcast Hope Speaks Episode 12

Machine

Machine

The machine says: 

Don’t compute 

Insert data 

Running numbers 

Synthesize 

Cold to the touch

Metal core 

Wires and cords 

No spirit 

Calculate 

Load…

No emotion 

Void soul 

Work is made easy 

Easy is made hard 

No tellers at the register

Orders filled online 

Digital realities 

Electronic lies 

Job once filled by humans 

Computerized 

Adding and subtracting has declined 

We lack the patience 

We ignore the delicacy of time 

Rushing to oblivion ignoring the beauty of small talk 

Forgetting the interconnected moments 

That unite us all 

Conversing with bankers 

Shopping at the mall 

Don’t compute 

Insert data 

Run the numbers 

Synthesize 

It's the technological age they say

This is evolution

Advancements is the solution

Have a life made of luxury

Love always, Esha 

Check out my Podcast: 

Hope Speaks Episode 11: Hope and Indifference

I read poetry throughout the segment. I also address the Johnny Depp and Amber Heard trial while talking about the problem with toxic relationships.  

Useless Lies

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There is no no lie worth living. Only the truth can withstand the storm of life. Fables pass away but reality will stand the test of time. 

Love always, Esha 

Baggage

Drop the baggage at the door 

You won't need old bags anymore 

The suitcases of yesterday will weigh down your progress 

Forget about the tomorrow that didn't arrive today 

Move forward... 

With every step you inch towards a future 

That makes the struggle worth the time 

Love always, Esha 

One Kiss

Listen to spoken word of One Kiss on Hope Speaks via Spotify

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One kiss is never enough. There must be dozens to make up for time lost. They must be doubled to address when the road less traveled gets rough. They need to cover the wounds and apply smooth balm to the scars that don’t disappear. They should last for days and stretch into years. Give a kiss strong enough to dry damp tears. Let it be so profound that it eradicates fears. Breath hopefulness into moments that would mean nothing without you here. And that’s why one kiss is never enough.

Love always, Esha

Grocery Store Prices

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The cart fills up with the splendor of groceries galore. But the cost has increased to ridiculous heights. Zucchini, cucumbers, carrots, mushrooms, potatoes, celery, peaches, apples, grapes, pears, lemons, cherries, luncheon meat, turkey, chicken, frozen pizza, onion dip, chips, guacamole, french bread all for the low price of $159. Take me back in time, let’s rewind to the days before the pandemic slump. Things weren’t perfect but living was affordable. And you could spend 10 dollars for lunch. Now 3 jobs aren’t enough. Keeping children in running schools are tough. Throwing quarters into a bottomless pit hoping the money swells. But even on your toughest days, remember all is well.

Love always, Esha

Careers & Passion

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In many ways, writing gave new meaning to my life. I know it sounds like a ridiculous notion. But I feel like God put a pen in my hand and a vision in my heart. In hopes of giving me something worth fighting for. We all have a talent or ability worth exploring. A desire to accomplish dreams that make us feel excited and joyful inside. So I would like to encourage each and everyone of you to do your thang… Don't be held back by the naysayers. Hold your head up high and face the obstacle of climbing an uncharted path. 

Be the fearless individual that carves a conspicuous trail in the mountainside. This is your season, this is your time. If it’s not hurting anybody and it gives you a natural high. Why not give your goals a try? Have a little faith that wonderful things are possible and they can happen for you. Sometimes, we give up our passion to chase after jobs that don’t respect our needs and ignore the demands of our spirit. Often times they determine the hours worked, vacation time and skimp on the benefits package. Leaving us to fend for ourselves despite contributions to the company. 

Years ago, I was at a youth seminar and the speaker insisted that we pursue the reason for our why. It's the driving force behind your inspiration? It encourages you to hold head up in the midst of adversity. We all need a motive to exist in this world. We need a reason to wake up in the morning and push forward. For me, it’s writing and my faith in God but for you it may be something entirely different. Since graduating from college, I have learned 3 critical things:

1. Life is too short to follow another person's plan for a happy life. 

2. Hope is a cascading river that never ends. 

3. There is no cap on passion, ambition and creativity. It flies free like sparrows hovering over the deep blue sea.

But with all that being said, following your dreams is never an easy task. There are days when the road gets rocky and I can’t see the way forward. So I rely on my faith to get me through. In times of desperation, I reflect on God’s promise. According to Philippians 4:13, I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. And that is a constant comfort. Because I don’t always have the wherewithal to address the challenges I encounter in my career or personal life without breaking down. As a writer, I spend my time trying to cultivate an audience that enjoys my writing. But if I can help one person with my words, make them feel like their not alone in this world then it’s all worth it.  

Thank you for reading. It means the world to me. 

Love always, Esha